Reasons
Because I’ve always been the fat friend.
Because I miss having the kind of endurance it takes to play beach volleyball with my friends. Or to fuck all night.
Because I want to wear tank tops.
Because every single one of my exes is dating or married to a girl with proper bones.
Because I miss getting whistled at when I walked down the street.
Because I want to wear ultra low rise jeans again without some muffin top bullshit.
Because I want to feel small next to the men I am with, who are always tall and lean and athletic. And because I don’t want to feel guilty getting piggyback rides from them.
Because it’s impossible to find cute jeans in my size, and because I feel guilty buying expensive jeans for a fat girl who doesn’t deserve to wear them and doesn’t look good in them anyway.
Because I have a lovely face and I’m a sweet girl and I know there is a man out there who would love me and stay with me if he would just notice me… and men only notice skinny girls.
Because I want round little tits and a bubble butt.
Because I want a gap between my thighs.
Because I’m already 21. If I don’t get thin while I’m still young, I never will. I want to be thin enough to enjoy my youth and all the sexy outfits and animalistic lovers and beach weekends that come with it.
Because there’s no fucking excuse for what I’ve let myself become.
Because success is the best revenge.
